i hope that God know's what He is doing. the waves are crashing down on my family and i, one after another... with short intervals in between and it's weighing me down.

i'm not as strong or smart as i want to be nor am i pretty or skinny. i'm broke, lonely and caught between my parents.

why is this happening now? what is His plan?

i feel like the whole world might come crashing down... and a part of me wishes it would...

the painful thing is that the world keeps going... unaffected by this huge gash in my heart.

what am i to do? how am i going to deal with this...

May God's will be done and may He be glorified when i'm down and on my knees.