I might get a new phone. Helio was bought by virgin mobile and now vm is being bought by sprint. hopefully everything works out and i'll be able to get a new number and phone with a full keyboard.
I get both inspired and discouraged by facebook! it's nice to connect with friends i hardly talk to. it's like we're friends online and i am apart of whatever they may share but it's also difficult to be reminded of the distance in both miles and absence of knowledge. when i see pictures of friends getting together, i can't help but feel sad. i want that! i want to hang out and post pictures of what a great time i had. but when i think about it, do i really want all the baggage and battles that comes with the friendship? do i really want to invest my time, love, heart and strength in something that might end or fade away?
i should blame myself for the lack of friends that i talk to because i only call other people for advice and not really care about what they are going through.
i need to prioritize my goals and i need to find out what is important to me. it would be nice to receive a phonecall once in a while instead of a text message.
found out how refreshing it is to just talk to God without hiding who i am or what i am dealing with. meaning, talking to him about my hurts and angry thoughts. my relationship with God gets more real and i don't have anything to hide. He knows everything that i did and He still loves me. and because He loved me first, i want to love him back through a life of repetance.